The screaming continues. Some days I am really okay with it. Today, I am pretty sick of it. Today I want to throw therapeutic parenting out the window and I.want.to…..SCREAM back. I want to forget all I know about trauma and love and God and I want to think only about me. The truth is sometimes I want to lose heart.
I whisked the non screaming children outside to breathe the air and the grass. A moment to step back and reflect. Remember. A moment to reset. Intention. We sat in a circle each of us for a moment of peace and affirmation. We listened to Rich Mullins remind us that it really is okay to be small. It is okay to feel powerless and just because you feel the fear it doesn’t mean you have to embrace it. We spoke about value and love and all that God feels for us. I’ll admit it, today was a little harder than others but I was able to acknowledge the fear and then step away into hope and back to love.
We all face giants from time to time. We are all small sometimes. We cower….so weak and the problem loams so big. Load your slingshot friend, take courage and don’t give up now….God’s got this.
I'm gonna tell you a story
That you've probably heard
And at the risk of being redundant
I'm gonna tell you something
That may not thrill you
But it could not hurt
Well it comes out of the sacred
Writing of the Israelites
It's the story of David
And how he slew Goliath
Well now the king of his country
He didn't trust in him much
And so to David's alarm
He tried to fit him in his armor
But the thing was so heavy
David couldn't stand up
So he left it by the river
Where he gathered five smooth stones
I guess it's safe to say he figured
He wasn't going out alone
He's not alone
What trouble are giants
What's wrong with being small
The bigger they come
You know the harder they fall
When you're fighting for Zion
And you're on the Lord's side
Well I think you're gonna find
They ain't no trouble at all
No trouble at all
No trouble at all
No trouble
Now there must have been some laughter
Among the Philistines
At the sight of this scrawny little shepherd
Coming out to meet the record-breaking mammoth of a man
Who was a killing machine
But it didn't shake David
'Cause he was smart enough to know
It's more the size of who you put your faith in
Than the size of your foe
What Trouble are Giants- Rich Mullins
Rachel,
ReplyDeleteMy sister in the Lord, I am praying (now) for you as your comment on Deep Roots also speaks of trauma and pain. I don't know your problem, but I trust from what I've read that you DO know the One who knows! Stand firm in Jesus, and He will not let you down. We can't see the future, but He can!
"For which cause we faint not; but though our outward man perish, yet the inward man is renewed day by day. For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, works for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory; While we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal. @ Corinthians 4: 16-18
Thank you, you are a great encouragement!
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